Heartbroken

Well after doing so well getting better, my Nan took another turn for the worse and went back into Intensive Care. This afternoon she passed away while I was at her bedside with my Mum and Dad and my Auntie, I keep on crying :'( can't stop in fact. Nor can I seem to stop eating, not bothered to be honest though.

Had a long old walk out tonight, was walking for around an hour and a half roughly. Had to get out of the house after an incident with a tube of tomato puree nearly pushed me over the edge lol! Matt's being ever so good bless him, I love him so so much and Bill's taking it all in his stride after I've explained that Mummy's sad and crying cos Nanny Lil's gone to heaven, apparently according to Bill she's going to be chilling out with Nanny Mary lol bless him!

My back is still feeling sore and tight so gonna try and attempt a tiny bit at the gym tomorrow, I haven't been for over a week and a half now..naughty naughty!! Though Matt's understanding that I've had other things on my mind and going to and fro the hospital I've not really had the time. Although I definitely need to step up the exercise as my loss of 1lb this week was less than impressive! Hopefully if I get back to the gym it might lead to a better loss next week.

Right gonna get myself off to bed, probably won't sleep but have to give it a go...just wanna say one more thing - mainly to raise awareness, my Nan died from a condition that arose from her contracting Hepatitis whilst on holiday that f'ed her liver up. Exactly how she contracted it we'll never be sure...Ice, Salad washed in tap water...who knows? However.... If she had had the correct inoculations this more than likely could of been prevented. When you book a holiday you're advised by your Travel Consultant to check with your GP as to what vaccinations you should have - PLEASE, PLEASE do this, I know I for one am guilty of only making sure they're up to date when I'm going long haul. I'm sure my Nan probably thought "it's only Turkey, I'll be ok" turned out not to be ok at all.

I never ever want to have to see another person I love die in front of my eyes, I know everybody has to go sooner or later but would prefer it to be later...and with as little pain and suffering as humanly possible. To be honest I'm not sure the whole thing has sunk in yet. Thank you to all of you that have had us in your thoughts. It means ever so much.

Will update on Monday with my WI result, not sure if I'll get to you before then, will have to wait and see what my mood is like I think.

Be awesome to each other and remember life is too short...too short to spend these..the best days of our lives putting our health in danger by being over weight - more determined than ever to get this weight off!!

Lots of Love, Lauren xxxxx

R.I.P Nan, Love you forever Little Lady xxxx