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Me 13st 13lb

Me 13st 13lb
August 2009 very unflattering picture as day 3 of camping...messy hair and no make up but good picture in the respect that I'm not hiding behind somebody or breathing in lol!

Thursday 27 May 2010

Life....


My little Nan is in Intensive Care :'( and it's not looking great for her. I went to see her last night and she looks so sweet and tiny too, just looks like she's sleeping. I came home and I just wanted to eat and came close last night to having a massive binge but managed to stop at 5.5 points worth of crap. I did go for a 2 hour walk to try and clear my head so I might of clocked up some Activity Points to cover it.

Life is so f*cked up sometimes, my Nan is so tough both mentally and physically...I don't get how someone can be fine one minute, then laying in a coma the next?? I know she's not been happy since my Grandad died...who would be when they've lost the love of their life? But I don't want her to go yet :'( can't stand the thought of my Dad's heart being broken again.

Anyway gonna pop back up to the hospital tonight and go to the gym after I think, see how I feel...it might do me good :) not looking forward to weigh in on Sunday but it's gotta be done I suppose.

On a positive note I'm so excited that Vic has joined the gym, we went the other night and OMG I've not laughed like that for so long. Think Vic going too might give me the kick up the bum I need at the mo :)

Will update WI's so far on Sunday xx


4 comments:

  1. What a difficult time you're having.

    It takes great strength of mind to pull back from an emotional eating bout. Really well done for that but don't go beating yourself up about it if you do succumb any time - just get back on track again next day.

    I wish your Nan well. You'll be in my thoughts.

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  2. Thank you, I have visited her again tonight on the ICU and the doctors seem far more positive then they did yesterday. I think the fact she made it through the night has given them more hope. They are going to try and wean her from her oxygen and try and bring her round from her medically induced coma tomorrow so I have everything crossed.

    I can't thank you both enough, sometimes strangers kindness astounds me...guess it's not such a bad world after all!

    Lauren xxx

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